woke up at 9am and met Val at 11am to buy the ingredients at Laguna. bought bread at Bread Top first. after that, Tina and William tegal met us and all of us went to ko Robert's house. turned out our chicken rot because our dear kokos forgot to put it in the fridge. we told them to throw it but ko Andy said that he wants to keep it for future use. or maybe donates it to Es Teler (the place where he works) eww. we made Tiramisu cake (Anthony taught us how to!). i know only then that it's not baked but frozen. we also made sandwiches, rice and chicken teriyaki. and prepared the crabmeat and cucumber for sushi tomorrow. altogether there's William tegal, Val, Roselyn, Melissa, Anthony, Sal and myself. the kitchen was so damn crowded. we had loads of fun! (:
today i realised how hard it is to be a WL. all this time, i was simply taking for granted all these WLs. thinking that this was all meant to be. but i've never realised how much effort they have to put in to lead the cell group in worship. that is until i become one.
it is not exactly my first time. once in NaCl. then another time in WWJD- my current cell name after its split.
it was awkward. damn awkward in the beginning. cause everyone was like so (what's the word) d.e.p.r.e.s.s.e.d
they looked weird! unusually different. then also the rain was pouring down halfway. the wind was frreezing me. the more i felt like it's just not my day.
first of all, i am already tired after cooking the whole day at val's place and also walking around the city to buy the ingredients. secondly, i am really really scared and nervous about becoming the WL. thirdly, all of us are feeling tired for whatever reason they have. fourthly, there so many newcomers today. why must it be today? ): why me?
Tina prayed for me and Tito (the guitarist) before we started the Praise n Worship. so kind of her. (:
and i believed her prayer has greatly boosted my confidence and faith and trust in the Lord for the Praise and Worship.
ok so in the beginning, i forgot to open in prayer. Sal and Val reminded me. so because of the rain, all of us had to move inside peter's house. (before, we were seated outside at his backyard. seated with plastic chairs. really really nice weather and view. clean fresh air!) so i prayed and we started singing. still i could feel the atmosphere being so tense. no one was really singing. except for Tito. but i continued to do what i think i ought to do and managed to lead the worship as best as i could have. (no holding back for God!) and after my 'King of Majesty' and 'From Inside Out' songs, (i prayed thrice in count) Tito said i did a good job. then my friends started to say the same thing too. Jin Sern even told me later that he's supposed to pray after my worship, but i did everything for everyone already! haha. God is good. i am so powerless and unable, but He helps me through it all. the storms in my life i began to slowly let Him take control. and by the end of the day, honestly, i felt really happy. i've accomplished something that i feared so so much. i've let go of my fear and learn to take God's hand and walk with Him. (: the feeling is indescribable. awesome awesome! it's a day that i will never ever forget. never.
the next time, i am leading worship. i am READY! no more worries. no more troubles. cause He will settle it for me. amin amin! (:
we took lots of pictures (narcist la), ate the bbq (thanks Tito, Anthony and Bill for their hard work) and played Wii. so fun! i played the bowling. got STRIKE on my first turn. well, what can i say, beginner's luck. haha.
went home at 11pm plus. before going back, i followed Valerie and Tina to Safeway. i need to buy fruits i realised. lychee, apples, grapes. oh and my Loreal shampoo! (:
thank You for making it a beautiful Friday for me and everyone else i am sure.
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